Esther She cried when she saw me. I don't blame her. I looked nothing like I looked the last time she saw me, and it was a shock. I get it. Lately I shock myself when I catch myself in front of the mirror. That guy in the mirror looks bad. Certainly he looks worse... Continue Reading →
Things I Overheard While Talking to Myself #9 (Count your blessings, Fishing with Captain Know Fish, America’s ass)
Count your blessings 1) The woman was in her late 60's when she died in her small apartment. She had left a trail of bodily fluids from the sofa in the living room to the bathroom where she was found dead sitting on the toilet. She was only found on the same day she died... Continue Reading →
Life in the Time of Corona #9 (In the time of Corona no one can see you smile, Mom and Dad, And then there is this…)
In the time of Corona, no one can see you smile. If you smile I smile and if you say hello I say hello. Doesn't matter if I know you or not. A smile is just a nice greeting to share with people as you pas them by. I realized the other day while at... Continue Reading →
The Shadow
I remember the moment when Andre was first diagnosed with cancer. We all waited and hoped for a miracle before the results came. His mom had cancer at the same age so the idea that one of her kids might get it too was always in the back of our mind. I know now that... Continue Reading →
Things I overheard while talking to myself.
Thirty Miles. It's the length of the Island of Guam. That's a U.S. territory for those of you that slept through history class in high school. That's all I remember about it now. Thirty miles. Something about us invading it, then losing it, then getting it back again also lingers in my mind when I... Continue Reading →
A Walk in September (2018)
It's September again and time to focus our efforts on supporting those whose lives have been touched by childhood cancer. Today and every Wednesday this month, supporters of this cause will meet in McAllen, Texas to take a walk together and bring some publicity to this fight. In its sixth year now, The Gold and... Continue Reading →
Love remembered
It is a fearful thing, to love what death can touch.-Yehuda HaLevi My sister died a few days ago. We didn't see each other much. My dad was married twice and had a whole set of kids before me and my immediate brothers and sisters were born. They were all grown before we came along... Continue Reading →
We fight the good fight
On this day three years ago, I sat in Dr. Juan Bernini's office at Vannie E. Cook Jr. Children's Cancer & Hematology Clinic as he told me and other family members that Andre, the cutest little 4-year-old boy in our world, had leukemia. He pointed to a screen on a computer and showed us a... Continue Reading →
THE HELPERS
"Look for the helpers. You will always find people who are helping."- Mr. Rogers I know who you are. You are the person that can’t help but tear up every time you hear the song “Fight Song”. You can’t see a small child with a beanie cap covering their entire scalp without wondering if they... Continue Reading →
The Obituary
My mother died on a Wednesday in September almost 13 years ago at the age of 66. Lauren, my youngest, was almost 6 years old at the time . They were very close. Lauren actually reminds me of mom a lot. They both shared a kindness towards people in need that I think is rare.... Continue Reading →